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1. What is Life Force ?
The beginning of Life is the Sharing of Life.
The ability for a living thing to divide, provide, insert, or otherwise surrender part of itself provides an opportunity for a new life to begin. Life is not energy, yet it depends upon the presence of energy. The sunlight, radiant heat, chemical interactions, viral transfers, magnetic attraction and repulsion, soundwaves, and other pulsing or moving forms of energy are NOT life forces. They can encourage, destroy, and otherwise influence a life force, yet they cannot create such.
A Life Force unites energies, matter, and memories to create a new independent material moving form which arrives with a memory. Genes and alleles (variations and mutations) are considered to be the transporters of this biological memory. DNA is a major part of gene storage. We now regard DNA as a carrier of that biological memory. DNA is a selection of opportunities, restrictions, baselines and thresholds which provide basic direction to a lifeform.
- gender
- hair color
- height
- eye color
- blood type
- immune capability, strengths & weaknesses
- aging changes in hormone and enzyme levels
- bone development, density, thickness
- intellectual capability connected to physical integrity
- heart patterns, low pressure, beat frequency changes
- skin color, consistency
- length and number of fingers and toes
- earlobe variation, attached/detached
- hair density, location, and expansiveness
- metabolic type
- sexual orientation
- arm folding preference
A GPS is not a driver.
A Global Positioning Navigation Device is a technology which integrates the mapping intelligence of the USA Defense Department with stationary satellites high above the Earth. These stationary" transmitters are actually moving at a speed greater than the rotation of the Earth's crust such that they remain in near exact predictable locations relative to Earth locations, while situated at a height of hundreds of miles above the earth's surface.
By comparing and calculating the signal strengths from multiple satellite transmitters, the earth bound GPS device can indicate, even tell you, where you are located. Through YOUR request and ITS projection of stored intelligence, the device can indicate where you are and suggest KNOWN pathways to your preferred destination. It won't make your decisions. It won't drive your car, or turn your body. It cannot suggest what it has not been told (programmed into it).
Somewhere attached to our DNA, associated with it, are hereditary energy blocks and Personality capabilities. These provide each human with fixed traits of species, gender, blood group, and other dominant/recessive physical strengths and weaknesses. Then, there are the fixed-yet-changeable traits which energy blocks impose as compulsive patterns of attitude, expectation, and reaction. These provide limits on Choice, Innovation, and Creativity unless released. Yet NONE of these IS a Life Force. They are all the Result of these Physical Realities.
The SPIRIT of a person is the Intelligence which enables the physical and non-physical combinations of other living life forms to unite and build into something resembling the contributors. Infants grow to become adults, like their parents. Yet human parents have no ability to force life into the potential form combinations they provide. They cannot MAKE a cell from each of them unit and divide and continue to divide and grow. The cells may join and grow, yet not under the instructions and laws of interaction put together and selectively modified by other humans.
A Life Force is a Will to Live transferred to living cells that gives them an independent identity and existence. As perfect biologically as the contributed cells may be, if they lose that Will to Live, they will stop growing, and die. The Driver may have a GPS yet without intelligence, the driver has no initiative nor desire nor destination to move towards or away from. As a life force diminishes, the degree and intensity of one's motivation, intentions, passion, faith, confidence, persistence, and, joy, diminish.
The Driver is like our Ego and SuperEgo with a programmed GPS (DNA) and a vehicle (body). We can add learning from mentoring, parenting, instructional, and institutional sources, but we cannot add a Life Force. We can destroy, weaken, or frustrate this Life Force (Spirit) yet, we cannot force it to stay nor force it to return when it has left. A parent cannot force the cells shared in a sex act to equal a pregnancy. There are many human sex acts, without birth control efforts, which do not result in pregnancy. The Spiritual energies of both parents can make the arrival of a fetal Spirit easier, or, more difficult.
YOUR Health will remain strong or have an optimum chance to be regained to the degree that you build and sustain a strong Spirit. You don't have to believe this or understand it for it to be a benefit or loss to you. If you have CFS-ME, or any other severe combination of chronic illnesses, you will KNOW that your Spirit is, or has been challenged. If you lose your Spirit, you die. Like a sperm and egg pooled together in an non-supportive environment, like water, they will die, with no option for Recovery. YOU can either build a comfortable environment for your Spirit, or, you can experience the influence of the many physical and emotional forces which can smother and drown it ... pushing it away ... perhaps to find a more inviting home elsewhere.
Understand, and make a Choice!
2. What is Libido ?
The term Libido is easily misunderstood.
In common use, it is believed to mean the intensity of sexual desire, referred to by some as lust. In a more pleasant tone, it is also considered as the presence of a desire for sexual intercourse and even the desire for a particular gender. Adding greater depth and complexity to the concept, there are researchers and writers who extend the nature, force, and strength of "libido" to include individuated creative, innovation, and Spirit-connected energies and intelligence. Libido is seen by others as a general feeling of love or attraction, a wanting to be with or share with, another living thing. Here are a few common descriptive terms that give us a sense of what is believed and possible:
- sexuality
- desire
- striving
- physical want
- hunger
- tension
- surrender
- Life Force
- passion
- joining in
- politics
- lust
- deception
- compulsion
- pain
- driving force
Conspicuously absent from Libido are some terms and characteristics related to sexuality. These serve to indicate how Libido is separate from, and more than, sexuality. These include infertility and impotence. Persons with high libido strengths may actually more often become impotent than the norm. This is because they expend their sexual energies more often, and in a greater intensity, leaving less fertile sperm to accompany their ejaculate. There may also be more vaginal and uterine activity than supports the regular and minimal release of eggs. This may be a biologically protective principle which provides fertility limitations to minimize the complications and demands of multiple birth pregnancies.
Impotence is a highly complex characteristic encouraged and mandated by many factors of radically different origin. Impotence CAN contribute many destructive belief and attitude influences towards a diminishing of libido. Yet, it is well recognized that a decrease in libido can also influence physical and belief influences which will bring about impotence. For the person with CFS-ME, if your Reptilian Structure is mobilizing your survival forces of flight, fight, or, shut down .. ALL of the time, it will have no resources left to mount a potency front or a physical sexuality based libido. If you are running from a starving yet strong tiger, it would not be a life saving pattern to develop a sudden sense of sexual lust, which might confuse your direction of exit and make you a tasty meal easily.
An intense desire to survive and live continues to be important in escaping from that tiger. THAT desire, for life, happiness, peace, togetherness, joy, and sharing is the destination of the driving Life Force. It can be expressed simply in behaviors ranging from the selfish to the spiritual. It can be expressed in complex behaviors ranging from leadership to the spiritual. It is not a destination or a highway. It is not a guidebook nor a business plan. It has been culturally referred to as our heart. Like our heart, if we keep it healthy and strong, we continue to have Choices of where we want to go, what we want to do, how we are going, who we want to go with us, and what influence we wish to make on others and for them to foster in us. An accident, intentional violence, emotional extremes, laziness, and physical degradation can challenge our heart, and similarly, our Spirit and Life Force.
The COLOR of our Libido use is an important discernment to our understanding of what we have and why our CHOICE of which Forms limits what we can do with it. I use the term "color" here to convey that each of these characteristics is potentially EQUAL in quantity and intensity. The libido of each individual is finite within the borders of how that individual destroys, builds, maintains, and uses what they have. Specifically, the more one uses each of the colors, the faster the supply of libido drains away. One can chose, allow, or be compulsive about these selections.
- Survival --- Red
- Emotion --- Blue
- Intellect --- Yellow
- Social ----- White
- Spiritual -- Black
Combinations of Red, Blue, and Yellow can give us all the colors we are aware of, whether by combining frequencies, or paint basics. Combining ALL the basic colors equally will give us White, while the absence of the Physical basics, yields the color, black. The color of the libido of our day is determined by HOW we express our libido. There is no BEST color for all persons for every day. There is a BEST for each of us, every hour, according to many factors including our Mission, Basic Personality, Environment, Access to Spiritual Guidance, Awareness.
THREE RULES to the Availability of Libido:
- Low libido = low energy & intention.
- High libido = high energy & intention.
- The more intensely and longer you use it, the less you have left .. until you allow for, or make the time and choices for the level of it to be rebuilt.
3. Destroying Libido.
There are both obvious direct and many indirect influences which can diminish our Spiritual strength and our physical capabilities. Some of these include:
- murder by others
- injuries/illnesses producing feebleness
- feelings of fear & shame
- feelings of loss and guilt
- feelings of hate and vengeance
- high intensity energy blocks
- obsessive-compulsive behaviors
- intense imprinting
- hormonal imbalance
- heavy metal toxicity
- systemic infections
- chronic acute pain
- despair, lack of options
- denial by intellectualism
- abusiveness of others
- defeat imposed many times
- gossip, lies, stereotypes
- suicide
Life is a Gift.
It can be taken, wasted, squandered, abused, minimized, and distracted out of existence. Many destructive influences we can Chose to control and minimize. The life we live is often the life we accept. Sometimes the life we live is the best we are allowed to have by the actions and beliefs of others. We also have the personal ability to modify the physical reality with a projective fantasy. We can "imagine", or bring to life, within our minds, an internal reality that degrades, or improves the external one. We can live life, as if, our environment IS different. Many cultures have a history of doing this through the play of card games and games of chance. We do this often when we project ourselves into movies, television shows, or video games.
Our health Recovery and stabilization will often be an extension of how strongly our Spirit has been gifted, and, how strongly we have built it to be. Life is a result of Giving, Sharing, and Building our Life Force. The options we follow, whether by imprinting, energy blocks, training, acceptance, or Choice .. WILL determine the present and future of our libido. Our libido is a signal component. When it is weak or going, the warning bells are ringing to summon the emergency services.
Don't despair. Pay Attention!
4. Building Libido.
Much of modern culture takes libido for granted.
In the world and beliefs of industry and commerce, it is assumed that you ARE alive and that the options to be considered and chosen are only those concerned with making and expanding an income. Modern culture frequently separates libido into the parts: drive/will (aggressiveness), sexual need/desire (lust), spirit (life-force). Each of these terms minimizes what it is and dissociates it into apparently unrelated energies.
1. A person's Drive, or Will Power, generally describes the degree of Aggressiveness which one has and demonstrates in their daily activities. Businesses have made it a common practice to advertise for persons who are Aggressive, or have a Drive to Succeed, when they are looking for candidates for sales, management, or, a challenging position. That is, they want someone who will do the job with passion, a sense of mission, a socialized selfishness, a compulsiveness, a commitment.
Employers often know that they are looking for an oddity.
The job they are offering will require a great sophistication of skills and experience if it is to be effectively done (provide a moderate level of income) with the resources which will be made available. For many, the job will neither return high amounts of income nor a high level appointment of power. This high risk for high return position requires someone who has confidence, faith, optimism, and persistence .. in addition to all of the experience and skill demands. Certainly, some persons who acquire CFS-ME have taken such positions.
2. Sexual need/desire (lust).
In many cultures there is a contradiction between the image and the reality of one's sexual libido. A man BELIEVED to have a high sexual libido is often regarded by many as masculine, macho, romantic, adventurous, attractive, stylish, cultured, and, desirable. Many are given preferential treatment. A man who ACTS upon a high sexual libido, with little restraint, often becomes known as a rapist, bigamist, gigolo, Romeo, boy-toy, adulterer, manipulator, prostitute, man-whore, and many other derogatory terms. No one hires such a person for any legal activity. No one respects such a person, except someone else like him.
Women are often given subtly different consideration for what they APPEAR (look like) to be and what they ACT OUT as being. Women who dress in clothing which is brief and reveals a large portion of their breasts, buttocks, thighs ... and especially if these areas are further highlighted, and, if they have what is promoted by the media as an "attractive figure", are often assumed to have a high sexual libido. There is no fact to affirm this and the few studies available indicate that the high libido of a woman is connected to none of these characteristics and may be best associated with degree of hair growth on the skin. Some women who formerly, and may again have, a high sexual libido, will acquire CFS-ME, and be best equipped to recover from it.
Women who act out their high sexual libido, with little restraint, are difficult to point to in the way in which they become treated by the general culture around them. This is because there are women, who for choice of income or security, or for emotional insecurity, dress and act AS IF they had a high sexual libido. These individuals become call girls, prostitutes, entertainers (some). They ACT the part, by dress and behavior, for reasons other than a high sexual desire. They attract names like whore, slut, tart, and similar derogatory terms that tend to suggest laziness rather than highly confident and motivated. No one with CFS-ME can ACT the part and few would choose to LOOK the part.
3. A STRONG Spirit (Life Force) is a difficult characteristic to advertise for in our material and commerce-centered culture. Those who DO have a high degree of capability in this area cannot easily be ethically tested for it. If they have demonstrated it, it may take one of the following forms:
- return to health from a terminal illness
- recovery from a physically induced coma
- achievement of feats considered impossible
- a high level of creativity & individuality
- a nervous breakdown and transformation
What are the Negatives!
These achievements are frequently avoided, as negative indicators, by those few seeking the Strong, who are themselves not strong. Such persons fear exposure to and sabotage from persons they consider to express the following:
- insubordination
- unpredictability
- high risk taking
- conflict generating
- insanity
What do those seeking others with a STRONG Will want?
They want a strong Will, a weak Sexual Need and a Strong Spirit.
More specifically, they want someone who is naive, ignorant, and highly energy blocked ... so that they can easily deceive and manipulate them into expending their high levels of energy for the benefit of the company and the leader ... at the EXPENSE of their own health, relationships, sanity, and life. They are betting on getting the most performance out of their hires, before, the individual dies, goes insane, or becomes wiser. Dying or going insane protects the secret Realities of the institution from being revealed to the public. Becoming wiser, presents more serious concerns. CFS-ME is an additional and newer option that withdraws the high libido person from Action!
Growth of Libido.
Many people assume that you are born, live, get old, and die.
For some, you are born and go downhill from there to death.
For others, there is a sense of being born, living through a childhood of joy, freedom, and privilege .. falling into the depression of adult responsibility, sacrifice, constraint, obligation, and role, .. and plateauing as a forgetful, slow moving, and bewildered old person .. before slipping away into the peace and resignation, of death. What if these BELIEFS were the extension of misunderstandings, ignorance, and a status quo of those who do NOT have a Strong Libido?
A DYNAMIC Libido would be one that could ..
- begin from nothing
- increase to a personalized threshold
- be expressed in a multiple of ways
- diminish with utilization
- accumulate with new fuel
Building Steps.
- Get adequate REST.
- Become a contributor, not a savior.
- Determine and follow a health DIET, for YOU.
- Be PROACTIVE: Learn about CFS-ME.
- Do CHI growth exercises: Tai Chi, Qigong, Yoga.
- Learn to BREATH deep, long, and low.
- Reduce your number of ENERGY BLOCKS.
- REFRAME your destructive imprinting.
- Detox any Heavy Metals & chemicals.
- DO regular passive or active exercise.
- Participate in respectful, healthy, sex.
- LISTEN for Wisdom through prayer/meditation.
- BE Thankful for what you have, more than others.
- Life is not over until you stop living it.
- Encouraging others brings energy to you.
- Death is a conclusion; not a destination.
No one can kill our Spirit, although, we can give it a good or poor place to reside in, and, we can allow others to make that home pleasant or terrible also. It happens all too often that people force an unhappy Spirit to stay, or, put very negative energies towards the Spirit of another person. It would be so much healthier if we would make a positive spiritual home within us for our Spirit. That would allow our Spirit to be super strong against the negatives of others. If in doing this we were fortunate to encourage others to do so, the result would be for a better environment to come back to us.
5. Sustaining Libido.
If you have CFS-ME, you must CONSERVE your libido, or die.
Sustaining is part building, part collecting, part conserving, part receiving.
The Principles are obvious. The Means are not.
Until the 20th century, few people survived long enough to acquire CFS-ME. Usually, persons with acute illnesses would die; some would recover. Often, people with chronic illnesses would live as long as resources available to them enabled them to live very restrained and secluded lives. Changes in cultures and individuals brought more opportunity for survival and recovery from all forms of illness. Increased plant, animal, and fish meal choices through importation and subsidization provided a greater complexity of nutritional assimilation and a greater opportunity for transferring toxins and poorer quality nutrition. Increased population exchange through travel, both for business, education, and pleasure .. afforded opportunities for inoculation by contagion. Increased political unification provided more assets to fund health research and delivery.
Increasing one's Life Living Score.
(How civilization has influenced us)
- Commerce: more credit, more satisfaction, ...
- Nutrition: more calories, more energy, less support.
- Immunity: more challenge = more mutation = more strong.
- Exercising: with more balance and less extremes.
- Clothing: from utility to style, variety, and, fashion.
- Harmony: increased sharing/enforcement of laws.
- Medical: more treatment options; less waiting.
- Income: mass production efficiencies = disposable extras.
- Sexual expression: more talk, more distraction; less action.
- Education: public AND private, long-term financing.
- Materialism: simplified to "You are what you have".
- Legal: more civil rights; less abuse/more respect.
- Empire building: control by economics & dependency.
- Depressiveness: confidence through media fantasy.
- Travel: beyond the neighborhood to the wide world.
- War/Conflict: from hand-to-hand to hand-to-machine.
The Life you live may become the life which OWNS you!
So much of life in the industrial-commercial world over the 1900's resulted in increased material expectations and demands that the more one had, the more still there was to have. Credit became the great fantasy of economic freedom as it enabled individuals to possess in years what one's parents had taken decades to accumulate.
The reality of credit, for king, country, and citizen, is that it demanded enslavement. A refusal to work as a cog in the wheel of cultural influence and power building was the threat of loss of one's symbolic material identity together with one's social acceptability and one's gender attractiveness. It became one's DUTY to participate materially or be found a traitor to the cause of happiness-for-all.
One's libido was sustained by a social structure that promised the individual greatness for following the status quo, the will of the persuaded majority. Advertising and marketing as well as education and politics, maintained high participation levels through the exploitation of fears, with promised remedies and solutions. Alternatively, the weakness of tiredness from overwork, received the promise of better lifestyles and better relationships if the material gifting to family members and self provided a placebo for personal attention and sharing.
The reality of fracturing relationships increased the obsession for ever more possessed material wealth, at least in intent and on credit, if not in title. The self-sabotaging cycle promised to repeat with ever increasing demands, until, libido demand and frustrated results exceeded a threshold of stability lost capable of shocking one into awareness and disengagement, or, apathy.
6. Recovering one's Libido.
Everyone wants to recover valuables they believe they have lost.
The Reality here is that people don't LOSE their libido.
They spend it, invest it, waste it, employ it, fail to encourage it, and, sabotage it. If you have done one or more of these, you can learn how to better manage what you can rebuild. By learning that balance, it will be more difficult in the future to minimize what comes to you by choices you make. It is better to rebuild and maintain than to drain away what flows towards you so as always to end with thirst. Let us first examine, briefly, those uses we put our libido to.
Spent Libido. (Sacrifice)
We "spend" our libido when we urgently and knowingly use our energy and intention with the Expectation of gaining something of worth to ourselves. This may be something selfish and personal, idealistic and altruistic, or for survival and security. Perhaps we are feeling lustful, yet want to be respected and show respect for a loved one. We masturbate to orgasm, knowing that this will remove our lustful urgency and we will then be able to be more relaxed and sharing with our loved one. We hate the thought of killing, yet we join a hunting group to provide food for ourselves and the families involved. This FORM of use tends to be short-term and immediate.
Invested Libido. (Passion)
We "invest" our libido when we calmly and knowingly use our energy and intention with the Hope of gaining something of worth to ourselves or for others. We highly respect and encourage another person with the Hope that they may Choose to do the same for us. We put an enormous amount of cumulative energy into a project, cause, or issue in the Hope that the process or the outcome will benefit both ourselves and many others, in Quality of Life. Note that this FORM tends to be a focused and channeled use of one's libido which may be chosen by, or, may compulsively "drive" a person for months, years, or decades.
Wasted Libido. (Foolishness)
We "waste" our libido when we unknowingly use our energy and intention with Expectations, Hopes, or Confidence of gaining something of worth to ourselves, or others ... and receive only a small or no part of that. This can happen if we are naive in regard to trusting others we know little about through experience, or, because we trust the promises and commitments of others based upon words of others or contracts. We do our work, make our effort, pay our money, risk our lives ... and then find that the other person was insincere and deceptive, and may have never intended to reciprocate our devotion, trust, energy, or commitment. Or, their intent may have been sincere, though based on inexperience or irrelevancy, which we COULD have discerned. This FORM of libido use can lead to any of most of the other forms, depending upon our Basic Personality, in each situation.
Employed Libido. (Work)
We "employ" our libido when we knowingly use our energy and intention with the Assurance of Others, of gaining something of worth to ourselves. We work long hours, manually or intellectually, to gain training, experience, and expertise quickly .. to receive employment, a wage increase, a job promotion, a holiday preference, forgiveness for errors, or, personal preference ... and often do. Perhaps we entertain another with an assurance that they will become, or remain, our partner. This FORM of libido use is often temporary, or ritualistic (routine/scheduled/regular) but can become chronic, and sometimes becomes addictive.
Taken for Granted Libido. (Ignorant)
We "disrespect" our libido when we unknowingly use our energy and intention with an unconscious Assumption of gaining something of worth to ourselves. We expect to be able to share a sexual experience with a loved one, without regard for the long hours of work, passionate involvement with a cause, symptoms of sickness, recent tragic experience, sex based fears or energy blocks, or recent outbursts of destructive energies .. which we, or they, have acted out. This is an example of ignorance because we COULD be more aware of these aspects of our lifestyle and that of our partner. We CAN learn to modify this FORM, though often only with the feedback, compassion, and encouragement from our loved one.
Sabotaged Libido. (Tragic)
We "sabotage" our libido when we knowingly, or unknowingly, use our energy and intention with an Expectation or Assumption of gaining something of worth to ourselves, or others --- yet, end up losing what was Hoped for. We buy an expensive gift for someone we hold lust for, yet hardly know, in hopes of their recognition, acceptance, appreciation, and, mirrored lust ... and they are repelled by our thinly concealed lust, and avoid us ever after. This is an example of tragic use because we KNOW the truth and the reality, and are not that surprised when we receive a negative response, although we were still hoping for the "miracle" of a positive. Once enacted, we seldom are given another opportunity to constructively approach this person. We may learn from this failure, yet that learning may yield more sabotaged incidents, or, wasted, spent, or, invested libido outcomes, depending on the relevancy and constructiveness of the learning.
We can Stabilize our Libido IF, we are aware of the above factors and chose, or avoid, and temper them wisely. The combination and threshold balance for each person will be determined by THEIR --- Basic Personality strengths, Mission/Purpose, Personal Spirit energy level, personal and culturally influenced (imprinting, education, encouragement) body health, energy block weakened Reptilian Structure, environmental positive and negative stressors, and genetic history. Yes, the BALANCE is Very Personal. Spiritual Guidance can assist greatly, yet only with constant questioning and confirmation. Here are some GUIDELINES:
Stabilizing our Libido.
- Sleep: regular and adequate.
- Awareness - of what brings you Hope.
- Work: focus on Mission.
- Exercise: of brain and muscle, daily.
- Forgiveness to self & others for imperfections.
- Conflict or Opinion: know the difference.
- Nutrition: What best brings you energy?
- Diet: how do YOU metabolize?
- Healing: What has worked best for YOU?
- Sexuality: minimal during illnesses.
- Hate: is their a benefit that can be reached?
- Role Models: What can you learn from them?
- Joyfulness: thankfulness for opportunity.
- Guilts: release, reframe, rebirth.
- Pharmaceuticals: use sparingly.
- Security: what is fundamental for YOU?
Remaining Positive, Active, and at Peace are the major ingredients to assisting us to experience the most efficient use of our Libido. That is, by keeping our USES of OUR libido in Balance, we can experience the best, and achieve the most that can be beneficial to ourselves and others ... through our Lifestyle and Life. Doing this will also get us to an optimal libido level for us and ensure that such a level is maintained, beyond repeated challenges, through the long-term.
7. Sexuality and Joining In.
HARD Choices!
In a context of one's Basic Personality, a strength of "Sexuality" translates into, what is for many people, a larger picture of "Joining In". That is, sexuality is what we do WITH other people, not TO them. That means THEY participate with US. This is why such a strength may be expressed as Politics, and perhaps why a politician, from time to time, will get coverage in the scandal papers for mixing business with pleasure in a compromising way. For the person with CFS-ME, the symptoms of fatigue, impotence, nerve disruption and hormone imbalance altogether DEMAND no action. It isn't joining in if only one person is active and the other one cannot reciprocate!
Relevancy:
I will speak of my own experience as a Reality that will apply for SOME of you. There are no studies done for this part. Who would respond HONESTLY to a survey about their sexual abilities? Even if one has inadequacies in this topic area, many would be in denial and report what they hoped they would be returning to, or, what WAS their performance. Those who have or are going through a similar experience to mine, will know the truth of it. Others who are in denial may be given the confidence and courage to accept and work with their unrequested changes. Still others, will be able to gain compassion towards those with such an experience and be encouraging and supportive, rather than rejecting, abandoning, vengeful, angry, hateful, and ridiculing. Wouldn't that be a gift! Finally, there will be those of you who can be most graced not to acquire such experiences.
How MUCH change is possible?
In a period of year, I went from preparing and providing Balancing Therapy sessions that occupied 8 to 10 hours a day for 6 days a week, to NONE. That further translates into providing no more than sessions to 1 or 2 clients, PER YEAR, for 6 years! MOST of the degradation of energy and mental clarity developed over a period of Two WEEKS, at the end of the first year. During that pre-year to getting CFS-ME, I experienced several acute illnesses that took their toll, temporarily, on my Kidney Meridian.
Not just the only Libido downturn!
In a period of year, I went from a capability and regular expression of sexual intimacy EVERY day, to NONE. That further translates into regular daily participation, down to 1 to 3 times PER YEAR, for 2 years, followed by NO participation for a further 4 years! MOST of the degradation of energy and loss of body awareness/sensitivity developed over a period of Two WEEKS, at the end of the first year. During that pre-year to getting CFS-ME, I experienced several acute illnesses that took their toll, temporarily, on my Kidney Meridian.
The Kidney Meridian is a major bioenergy pathway which highlights the Chi, or, Life Energy, available for one's Libido. When this becomes weakened, INVOLVEMENT with others and awareness of oneself diminish rapidly, and are highly frustrated, until balance is regained. IF the destructive influences are simple, direct, and can be made temporary, recovery is not far away. If, as in CFS-ME, the destructive influences are continuous and high intensity, NO recovery is possible until the major issues are addressed. Such includes resetting the threshold activity level for the adrenal glands, and, lessening or recovery from any acute illnesses.
Phantom body sensations!
There is no designated word or phrase that I know of which describes the following reality. Maybe that is why so few speak or write of it. It is definitely why so few who have not experienced it can have compassion for someone who does have it. It will be an underlying EXCUSE for marital separations and divorces. I say Excuse because the rationales are not based on truth but on perception, more accurately, projection and (personal insecurity) paranoia.
The ready expectation of an intimate partner, even one who DOES have CFS-ME, yet a different form, is that you no longer love them. Or, perhaps you have another love interest. Or, perhaps you are switching gender preference! And if you are ignorant enough, and many of us are, we may even wonder about this of ourselves for a few minutes!
Feeling Threshold Shock.
What if for most of your life, up to CFS-ME, you could feel the expansiveness of your chest and mass of your breasts, and then, nothing? What if, up to CFS-ME, you could feel your clothing brushing against your thighs and genitals, and then, nothing? The reality, for a man, of your penis never enlarging to a half arousal size, as is often normal, from that of cold water ultimate minimal flacidness? What if the form of a specific gender would catch your passing interest or raise your "spirits", and then, was like a blade of grass? Even more surprising, What if all this happened and you didn't care, until you began to reflect on it, or, someone else began to ridicule you about it. How can your understand this?
The proprioceptive senses are, specifically, sensory nerve terminals (proprioceptors) found in muscles, tendons, and joint capsules, which give information concerning movements and position of the body. You KNOW where your legs and arms are and can walk, with some care and slowness. Knowing that your genitals or chest/breast is there is a little more difficult, in terms of alertness, yet, you know if you look or touch, they will be there. This in between sensory world is what you might expect if you had been castrated (male) or had your fallopian tubes (female) tied. But you haven't! With forced stimulation, you can, sometimes, become aroused, although NOT completely, and seldom for as long as you or your partner would like. Is this THEIR failure? Or, your disinterest?
Acute Adrenal Fatigue (AAF) sets in for almost all people with CFS-ME.
What that means is that if your Reptilian Structure has a signal that the boat is sinking, it is not going to send troops to look through the periscope and ogle at the beauties on the beach! Neither is it going to send troops to fire torpedoes or intentionally sink to a protective depth, or take a high speed, high energy, avoidance flight ... if there is no external enemy to avoid! If the ship is sinking, it wants to find the hole and PLUG it.
ALL troops are oriented to High Alert, to checking, personally and by the gauges, for anything allowing unwanted water in, and desired air out. Shock is when the body minimizes conscious sensory abilities, to effect repairs. A cut or broken bone we may not feel for minutes or hours, giving us an ability and ease to be calm and effect repairs. In severe accident or illness incidents, the body may go into a coma, shutting down ALL but the most fundamental-to-life nerve centers so that our basic survival system receives ALL of the libido.
What happens to the person with CFS-ME?
Temporary adrenal fatigue is like a small crack in a submarine hull, fixed in a few hours or weeks. AAF is major, like your submarine dropped its propeller, ran out of gas and electrical charge, or lost its sonar AND radar. Most everything else has to wait. Some activities may be interrupted and stopped part way to completion. If the submarine has been spotted by an enemy and is under attack, the submarine crew will be given an order for "Silent Running". That means everything providing movement is turned off, voices are hushed, breathing is reduced, quiet prevails over everything. Unfortunately for the person with CFS-ME, some Chi functions may have to wait a perceptually very long time.
Decreased touch sensitivity is an added package ingredient.
Think this through. You are so tired and weak that much of the time you can scarcely stay awake, get out of bed, and look after your meals and hygiene. That can mean, as it did to me, that when all of the "survival" activities were completed, no energy was left. I could get into bed beside my wife, yet was too weak to raise my hand and move my arm, most of the time, to touch her. And if I managed to move that far, moving my hand to caress her, was an exercise in frustration. THAT is not sharing. THAT is not participating. Add to that the above noted lack of self-appreciation and lack of attraction for others ... and you have impotence.
8. Health, or, Sexuality ?
Doing what you can't do,
delays your doing what you could do!
Your energy reserves are at their lowest and your survival demands are at their highest, and you are going to go for a holiday! Yes, that is what "sexuality" is for a stressed out Reptilian System. When it has all the organ systems working in some degree of balance (40%) and with a functionality of at least 40%, then, maybe, you can have some fun.
If you are going off the reservation to go horseback riding when the chief is calling ALL of the tribe together to prepare for a massive attack from an attacking horde, you are just plain crazy. YOU are one of the 8 best warriors in the camp! Without you, the battle will be longer, fiercer, and, may be lost. If there are any survivors in the camp when you return, your solitary ride better have a very good excuse. You WILL be reminded that this jaunt of yours almost cost ALL the lives of your helpmates.
Flushing out the tubes every once in awhile is an easy rationalization for a man to encounter or project. After all, put a cast on your leg for 3 weeks and you may have to learn to walk as if you never had. I went through that myself, as a teen. With the plaster cast off, it took maximum effort to move my foot a centimeter while my leg hung over the edge of my bed. PAIN. Yes. It was one of the sharpest pains I have ever experienced. Yet, if I were going to walk again, I had to keep trying .. actually invite the pain. Six weeks later, I was walking as if I had not had a cast on.
There have been many new and improved rehabilitation options introduced and advocated since the 1960's. Visualization of movement, smaller casts, and electrical stimulation of muscles .. all have helped maintain some of the tone in a fractured or broken leg or arm. After a plaster cast is removed, recovery is much less painful and much faster. Is this knowledge and experience relevant to the action of one's genitals? If the hormones and regular activity are not there, is the reality like your genital being in a cast? Will everything deteriorate in function, or even worse!
No, your plumbing will not clog up.
A certain degree of semen production will continue even if it is not being expelled willfully. This will usually accompany the constipation symptom that one of a number of other illnesses will encourage that persons with CFS-ME may acquire. These include a variety of intestinal parasites, Candida widespread and systemic presence, heavy metal toxicity, structural misalignments of the spine, adrenal fatigue (reduced exercise), energy blocks or intense imprinting tied to fears or anxieties. ALL of these will increase your systemic toxicity and disrupt your hormone balance ... which will further encourage constipation and poor assimilation. The point is: constipation will highly encourage you to use abdominal tension to push down and try to expel stool when you go to the bathroom.
Constipation may reduce your Libido.
Abdominal tension from straining to go to the bathroom, as well as sexual and abdominal tension in healthier individuals, will force full seminal vesicles to empty, in part or fully. That means that when this male urinates, the urine will assist in clearing the released semen to flow out of the urethra with it into the toilet bowl, urinal, or other destination. Most of the time, the individual will be completely unaware that this is happening. Semen is sticky. It has a tendency to clump when exposed to water or the air. It will have an ease to stick to the china toilet bowl and urinal, as small clumps the size of large droplets. Stuck droplets will attach more strongly the more they dry or are left attached .. making cleaning them away, more and more difficult.
This male is producing more semen than he is making use of (perhaps diet, or, irregular sexual activity frequency), and/or has constipation problems. Many persons with CFS-ME have constipation problems. If the seminal vesicles are cleared, there is no pressure against pelvic nerves to unconsciously encourage the sexual interest of the man. That is, the distraction of or deferment of, the libido, into sexual activity. No semen left = no or reduced sexual desire, lust, and libido. This is not a singular contributor to loss of sexual desire, or, generally, libido. Note all the factors, elsewhere on this page, that can contribute to disrupted hormonal balance.
Desperation and Fear make fools of us all.
If you believed the part about the inactivity of one's plumbing, either masturbation, oral sex, prostitutes, or a mistress, are likely options in an attempt to FORCE the works into action. As short-term options, masturbation and oral sex may be benefits to ease one's anxiety and to allow some pleasant memories. In large part, both are dangerous options; the others are often health endangerers. Danger, means failure could happen. Hazard, means danger WILL happen. One can acquire many more negatives from the use of these options than positives, unless one follows a few guidelines, strictly, and with firm self-direction.
It is defeating and self-sabotaging to FORCE others to participate in an intended Sharing activity. Your partner may be loving enough to selflessly want to bring you some pleasure. If it becomes one-sided all the time, that love may turn into resentment and anger at the seeming or real possibility that you are taking advantage of them, selfishly. It takes a Strong person to say NO to oneself. As to how often or much is too much, is a factor of one's honesty, love, and understanding. The base line is that the more energy you put into this form of Fun, the less you have left for Recovery .. and the longer YOUR recovery will be.
Masturbation is also dangerous for persons with CFS-ME.
Men and women both like to use visualization to assist them in their sexual stimulation. The first challenge is what FORM of image you use. If it involves persons other than your partner, you are patterning your response to the Picture of a stranger, rather than the Reality of your partner. PATTERNS. Yes, whatever you Repeat, will be encouraging YOUR lifesystem to respond to as Normal and Preferred. Is that what you really want? Once the pattern is set, it may be very difficult to change. If you pick activities to concentrate on that persons you love or may love will not do, you are quietly destroying that real or possible relationship. Yet, use of pictures of strangers, who do represent positive portrayals can be an anxiety reducing option.
Masturbation in desperation has a tendency to lead to extremes of behavior.
These may be an effort to raise stimulation where sensitivity and nerve and muscle response has become less available. Keep in mind that some Middle Easter religious sects once initiated their priests with excessive masturbation. This ruptured the erection physiology leaving the priest forever physically impotent. Individuals may resort to the use of aphrodisiacs which sensitize nerves by irritation. This can lead to burns and rashes. Hormonal cremes may heighten sensitivity of nerves for extended period and result in constant pain. Better to be humble and accept and learn to understand reality.
Most pornography is the extension of male insecurities, failures, and emotional abuse related to treatment received from mothers, former wives, girlfriends, and prostitutes ... and is sometimes encouraged by peer attitudes and language. Acts of disrespect, physical harm, spiritual abuse, and health hazard are common portrayals to encourage men to act out feelings of vengeance and power. Desperation, like lust and abandonment --- tend to encourage individuals to experiment with more and more dramatic and unusual acts. Denial is the greatest weakness of Pride. These FORMS of behavior and attitude sabotage any future stability of Shared, Respectful, participation in intimacy, of any kind.
Lastly, carefully considered or Spiritually Guided masturbation CAN be a positive for some persons with CFS-ME as a reminder of what sexual feelings are! Yes, it is possible to "forget" what sexual experience felt like if your sexual desire is absent for enough years, you have a poor recall ability, and, you avoid the many forms of artificial mental erotic fantasies. Also, if you ARE recovering, there will be a period of time when your physical stamina and participation will be unpredictable.
As may have happened in the earlier stages of loss, becoming excited for a few minutes and then having your erection and desire fall like a bomb really tests the understanding and compassion of a loving partner. Becoming 90% aroused, yet not enough for any but the most failing forms of intercourse, is discouraging and depressing for all parties involved. Perhaps best to wait until one is more certain, and more confident, of stability of performance, through masturbation.
Guidelines to Safeguard Health:
- Accept that you have multiple illnesses.
- Determine and treat for recovery of health.
- Being strong is inadequate. Become Powerful!
- Less sexual activity = faster recovery.
- Libido includes life force and sexual desire.
- Functional inability is not equal to breakage.
- Test for & eliminate contributors to impotency.
- Only ask of your partner what you would do for them.
- Constipation can spill/waste your life force reserve.
- Knowledge can reduce fear, anxiety, depression.
- Choice = Respect; Force = obsession & weakness.
- The patterns of behavior you build dominate your life.
- Restrained masturbation can avoid physical damage.
- Respectful masturbation fantasies encourage love.
- Masturbation can determine stability of performance.
Treat sexuality as a Part of Health.
Stop considering sexuality as an indicator of health status.
Joining in can bring great rewards of enjoyment and self-fulfillment.
Knowledge, respect of self and others, and a Faith that God will help, if you allow, is the greatest package of encouraging factors that can buoy you like a life preservation ring.
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